Episodes

I don't want my first blog of the year to sound like this, but I can't help it, I guess.

I'm having one of my episodes again. (let's just call them episodes, cause I don't even know what these shits are)

Do you ever feel like your mind is gonna spontaneously explode because you have a lot going on in there? Like thinking about school works, what job you're gonna have after graduation, personal shizz, heartbreaks, whatever. I, for one, seem to always have these episodes. Going through one now, thus this post. 

IDK, maybe it's the pressure of knowing that I''m gonna finish school in a few months, and I'm gonna have to provide for myself after that. You know, all the responsibilities of a grown, mature individual. Guess I'm not yet ready for the real world. 

Sometimes I'll say that I really want to start working and earn money on my own, other times I just want to be a kid again and crawl on my mum's lap and sleep there and feel safe. But I have to man-up now (or woman-up). We won't be kids forever, we won't stay in school forever, and we definitely won't be provided for for the rest of our lives. Whatever, I'll do what I want (I just need to make up my mind soon). 

So, thanks for reading my rant about life, promise not all of my post will be like this. Haha! 

xoxo

Problem

Do you ever feel like crying but you don't even know why? Like your heart wants to burst from sadness and pain but there's no reason behind it. I don't even know what's wrong

I want to cry. I really, really, really want to cry. 

Someone please talk to me. damn this.  

My Forever Crush/Bae

Can we just talk about how adorable, cute, amazing, and perfect this person is?

I've watched all of his videos on YouTube and he is one of my all-time favorite. I love how he's come a long way and still be so awkward around people, how he's not afraid to tell the whole of internet about what scares him the most.

He may come off as rude sometimes, but that's who he is. Dan never pretends to be someone else, he let's us see the real him even if he knows that a lot of people may judge him. He admits his flaws and is not ashamed of being a college drop-out.

Because of this guy, I learned that everything really happens for a reason. Sometimes what we planned for ourselves may not be what's best for us, so we might as well just go with the flow.

Haha. I never wanted this post to come across as a rant, but I can't help it. I just want us all to appreciate this ball of sunshine. Srsly, I got distracted with this .gif countless of times while I'm typing out this post. I could watch him smile and laugh all day without getting tired of it.

do you also have a favorite youtuber?
xoxox

Birth Month

NOVEMBER = Birth Month.

I'm never excited about my birthday, especially since I turned 18 last year (I don't want to get old). I know it's weird but birthday means I become a year older and being old means RESPONSIBILITIES! Haha! But it's inevitable, so I have no choice but to go with it, ugh! Sucks.

Anyway, there's a good side to my birthday tho. Because birthday also means GIFTS! Yaaaaasssss! Mum bought me some things yesterday, and I love them. Just some cosmetics and a 1989 T.Swift CD :).

Just wanted  to share that with everyone else. Ha!

xoxox

Addiction (probably not a good thing)

Before anyone could react, please read through the post before saying anything bad about my title. Thank you. Haha!

Recently, I've been devoting most of my time to watching youtubers do whatever they fancy doing.

I'm still on vacation from school, and I'm constantly looking for things to waste my time on. And I have been addicted to watching vlogs on youtube. It's very entertaining and somewhat educational (???) and it also eats up most of my time, cause when I start watching I never notice anything anymore, and when I look up from my screen it's already 12 am, or something. HAHAHA!


And this is a problem because my grand mother keeps waking up in the middle of the night and finding me laughing my ass off. Which is not a good thing because she might start thinking that I have a serious problem. And she also scolds me about staying up all night.



But like I said, I'm already addicted and I might not be able to stop. Which is another problem because school will start in a few days and I am now used to sleeping at around four in the morning and waking up at 2 in the afternoon.

This (school) is the reason why my addiction is not a good thing. BUT! at least I don't smoke, do drugs, or drink until my kidneys fall off.

On my next post, I will talk about my top favorite youtubers. Also, if someone's reading this and you have the same innocent addiction as me, please, talk to me. Hahaha.

hugsandkisses. xxx

Rise of the Guardians

"When the moon tells you something... Believe in it."

I've watched this movie for what feels like a hundred times already but I don't think I'll ever grow tired of it.

I know I'm 18 and I should be watching more serious movies like, I don't know, Les Miserables or American Hustle, but I'm still young, and I'll watch whatever I want. So, back to the point. This movie is one of the greatest animation movie I've ever watched. It has substance, great story, and marvelous animation.

Run down of the things I liked about the movie:

1. Characters - This movie has the perfect characters to catch the attention of the viewers. Who wouldn't want to watch something that will prove that Santa and the Tooth fairy are real?
2. Conflict - I never liked scary stuff, so it's easy to know that I hate the boogieman, but his appearance in the movie is inevitable, and I must say that I really liked it. I love how they portrayed the nightmares as dark horses and how they can "smell fear". Perfection! 
3. Portrayal of the Characters - This is different from number 1. This is how they made Saint Nick look like he's some kind of a big and burly guy, how they made Easter Bunny the way he is, all cool and tough but still has a verrrry soft spot. The way the movie made us see the things we believed in, in a new light, in general is what really got me.
4. Sandy (Sand Man) - I think it's not appropriate to call him man, because he's too cute and funny hahaha. Yeah. I love how funny he is, and how I never expected how big his character is in the end. His death and resurrection made me cry. Loads. 
5. Cutesy little elves - They made me laugh. So hard! I've said enough. Hahaha.
6. Most important thing of all - Jack Frost! Do you know how cute he is? Do you know how special he is? Do you know how in love I am with him? Oops! haha. Kidding aside, he is perfect. 

After all the things I cited above, need I say more? I think not. :) so if you haven't watched it yet, (but I doubt it) you are missing half of your childhood life.

No matter how old you are, there's still a five year-old somewhere inside of you. And that child is sad, because you're neglecting him. Embrace your childhood! :)

hugsandkisses xxx

People with all those shenanigans

I haven't written on my blog for a long time now. So writing something now is a big deal for me.

I'm feeling really irritated with something, I don't know what, for two days now. It's getting on my nerves actually, and I'm starting to fear that I'm becoming a bipolar. 

THE PROBLEM: 

I don't know, I have a problem with everyone! I'm irritated with this person who is sooooo "maarte". And then I'm mad with this someone who is sooo bossy! What's wrong with them? What's wrong with me?! Everyday of my life, I keep telling myself to mind my own business and do not upset myself by mingling with them, but how do you expect me to do that, if they're throwing their shit on me?! 

Everything is so messed up and upsetting that I sometimes want to runaway and leave everything behind. 

P.S. Can someone save me from this mess I'm in? Ugh. LIFE!